Another Week Off!

A sight for sore eyes!

I am trying to make the most of my time off now that the treatments are every other week. I am still working but there is plenty of time to get out and have some fun. The big news is Cameron is home! He flew in last Tuesday night and it sure is great to have him here. He has really grown into a wonderful, loving man and I couldn't be more proud. It looks like he will be staying through February to be able to play a role in a play up in the LA area. I will post more info as soon as contracts are signed and I have permission! 

So I was told I would start seeing a pattern of my good days and bad days after treatment and boy have I ever! I get the infusion on Thursdays and by Friday afternoon it starts for me. First the nausea and bad taste in my mouth start up. It is like having morning sickness 24/7. Its not like it comes in waves...it just stays from Friday afternoon until Wednesday! After that it slowly goes away and by Monday of the following week it's pretty much gone...just in time to go back Thursday and start over again! I have learned that I have to eat small meals/snacks 5 to 6 times a day so I don't get myself too full. The other part is the head game. I guess between the AC and the steroids this is expected. The depression and bad thoughts creep in and are VERY hard to control on those tough days as well. Getting out and not staying home feeling sorry for myself helps a lot but I need to be extra careful with germs right now. In fact I have a little cold right now that I think Cameron was kind enough to share with me.

Surgery

I still have not made a final decision on my surgery. Lumpectomy verses mastectomy! The doctors want to do a lumpectomy and heaven knows I would rather recover from that but I want to make the right decision for down the road. No matter what I decide it does not help my survival from my current triple negative, removing my breasts will not help me if there are rogue cells in my body. I see 2 parts to this decision though. Of course what I just said is part one of that but part two is that I DON'T WANT TO GET BREAST CANCER AGAIN!!! I feel like I have known since I was in my 20s that it was a matter of time that this would happen and if I leave all that tissue there then it is just a matter of time until it happens again. I just don't know what to do and will be meeting again with the surgeon to discuss it one more time. Please continue to pray that God gives me good questions and that the doctor gives me good answers and of course that He makes my path clear as to what I am supposed to decide. 

Going, Going, Gone...

So they were right, the AC pretty much finishes off the whole "hair falling out thing!" I only have a few measly little wisps of hair on my head which Cameron keeps offering to buzz off for me. I am sure I will let him do it at some point but right now what I have helps keep my head warm at night. It is also a whole lot easier to pick up and throw away hair that is 4" long than the nubs of buzzed hair! We will see...not sure I am ready to look like Telly Savalas yet! Along with the hair loss means that my eyebrows and eyelashes are slowly disappearing. That makes me sad, you don't realize how much they help until they are gone. The eyebrows are a much easier fix since you really can't do anything about the lashes. I feel like I look sleepy without them or like I've been crying. It is so hard to not feel like your body is slowly disintegrating from all of this. From skin changes, digestive things, hair, and many things I will spare you the details of. It certainly is very humbling to say the least.

Well, I will post again at some point after next Thursday. I will have both Danielle and Cameron there this time and I hope Moores is prepared for that! Frick and Frack will definitely make it interesting for us all! ;o)  Thanks for your prayers and for taking the time to share the journey with me!

 Wendy and I grabbed coffee bobas and headed to the zoo. Look at this great shot she captured of the giraffe spitting water!









It was a week for "old" friends (and I mean that I have known them a long time...not a comment about their ages!). Some of my dear old high school friends went on a brewery tasting crawl in honor of Greg's birthday and I was able to meet up on their last stop at Intergalactic. It was great to be with them of course and fun to check out a Westview grads' place. Alex Van Horne, that went to school with Kendall, opened it up and I am told the beer is awesome...you should check it out!
Joe and I went to the Carlsbad street fair and I ran into my favorite roommate Bonnie (okay, I only had one roommate but she was clearly my favorite!). We lived together when we worked at Disneyland and it was so great to see her!

Good thing Christian never gets cold! Hee-hee

Lastly, a little Halloween fun for y'all! I helped create Kendall and Christian's mermaid and merman outfits. Kendall did an amazing job on their makeup by using a fine net to paint over, to create a scale effect. They attended Adam Lambert's Ghost Town Halloween Party up in LA with Danielle and her boyfriend Casey. They all had a blast and there are more photos on both girl's Facebook pages.

Danielle did the saloon girl thing to stay with
Adam's Ghost Town theme. Her gun and holster
are gold of course!