Toasting the Coconuts...

The booby smasher...at least
I get a nice new robe!

My sweet Rachel

Although radiation got postponed to this week instead of last it has officially started! The doctor decided that due to my triple negative breast cancer that it would be safer to really go after any possible cancer cells in an aggressive way. I am having HDR Accuboost for the first 8 treatments and then the remaining 25 will be "regular" radiation. This HDR thing is sooooo much fun! They put you in a contraption much like a mammogram machine. Then they snap in these little metal discs on each side and hook those up to a machine that the radiation comes from. I get to sit there with my tender, post surgery, breast (the biozorb thing that is in there really hurts when it gets squished too) for about 20 minutes!!! They do up and down one time then alternate with side to side squishing. The good news is that after about 5 minutes you start to go numb. What the heck does one do sitting there for that long? I am still trying to figure out what to do with my arms and legs not to mention my head. I am pretty much staring into a corner so I try to find different ways to entertain my mind. No coloring books for this one lol!!!

My technician Rachel is a real sweetie and plays whatever music I want during it. So far we did the 60s/70s and yesterday was the Beatles, not too bad. Everyone in the radiation department is beyond nice, and I love Dr Yashar as well. This part of journey seems to be the best yet since they are all so wonderful. 

Living Life

Joe took me to go see none other than....Donny Osmond at the Balboa. Yes, I was a huge D.O. fan growing up. I had wall to wall posters of him and his brothers all over my room and took a lot of crap for it from many of my friends! (you know who you are!) It was so much fun and he looks and sang amazing! My crush has reemerged! Joe was a trooper to take me and it was a fun blast to the past for sure! I think Joe even looks a little like Donny!

Still pretty darn cute!

I will be going back to work a little starting Feb 15. It is hard since I have radiation right in the middle of the day. I miss the girls at the salon and it will be great to be with them again!

I have had some fun times out with friends from lunches, the zoo, and even had breakfast today with my favorite priest, Father Jacob. He is doing great and it was wonderful to see him. He will be officiating Kendall and Christian's wedding! Thank you to all of my friends that have been encouraging me to get out, I have enjoyed every moment with you all!

Blessings

The blessing of learning patience has been the one I am receiving lately. I am anxious to make the big decision of more chemo or not and learning to trust that God will bring that answer in His time has been challenging. I do much better in the morning and early day time with it. I wake up feeling so positive and faith-filled but as the day goes on I start to disconnect and shut down. It's kind of like the "sun downers" old folks get I guess...not that I am an old folk YET!! I was praying this morning kind of "apologizing" to God about shutting down. I do it to the people around me and I also do it to Him. Then I read my Jesus Calling for today and I thought I would share that with you:

"Bring me your weakness and receive My Peace. Accept yourself and your circumstances just as they are, remembering that I am sovereign over everything. Do not wear yourself out with analyzing and planning. Instead let thankfulness and trust be your guides through this day; they will keep you close to Me..."

I will do my best to turn toward Him even more when I least feel up to it, I will bring him my weakness.

Fun day at the zoo learning how to us
my camera!

Wendy sitting in the kid's chairs
waiting for me at radiation