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#7 and Hanging in There!
I apologize for the delay. I really have to push myself to post on Thursdays because Friday is a tough day for me followed by Saturday that is better but still a little tough. I am full of the chemo and steroids and they take their toll for sure. It plays with my head even more than my body and I just need to find ways to fight back on those days. Getting out and getting my mind off of things is the best right now.
So Joe and Danielle took me first for my blood work followed by an appointment with my oncologist. She had a very hard time locating the tumor in my breast and feels that it is really shrinking! That was great news...moving in the right direction for sure. I feel it, I would say it has gone from an olive to a blueberry. Next step, GONE! Please say prayers for me that the tumor will keep shrinking and that there will be No Evidence of Disease when I have my surgery. Speaking of which, I got a little better idea of how long all of this will take. I probably will be finishing up all my chemo some time in December and then surgery after the first of the year I would think. Then a few more weeks for some recovery time and I start 6 weeks of radiation 5 days a week. Its a long road and very overwhelming if I look at it as a whole so I just keep trying to remind myself that I just have to go at this one day at a time. Hard to do sometimes!
Joe had to leave for work but my Daniellie stayed and kept me company. That lovely girl of mine drives all the way down on Thursday night after work and then has to drive all the way back up Thursday evening. She says I have to stop thanking her for her sacrifice and I can't call it that any more. I am incredibly thankful to get to see her and spend time with her though. I had an extra bonus this time, my friend Lucia came by and joined Danielle and I. It was great getting to see her and catch up on life. Of course it was all followed by Rosary Time with Danielle. We went to Our Lady of Mt Carmel and I was so happy to share some of my favorite spots in the church to spend time praying.
Blessings
Everyday I am so blessed to be surrounded by so much love and support. Joe, Kendall and Christian put up with my mood swings, and really try their best to distract and encourage me. It's a big job! I just don't know what I would do without them. I am in a phase of putting this all into perspective right now. I have a hard time just going about what would be a "normal day" and not having this cloud hang in front of it all. One early morning when I had a moment of clarity and inspiration I wrote some pretty powerful stuff on some paper. I need to keep reading it and reminding myself of it all. I am so blessed and I need to hand this over to God each and everyday. He certainly can handle this better than I! This cancer does not define who I am, I need to get back to being good old stubborn Beth. I need to take my life back over and start the living that goes on between all of this! I have so many blessed reasons for it all. Each of you are part of that! With that in mind, I need to go because Joe and I are heading off to go see Pippin at the Civic Center today. Looking forward to a day out with Joe and best part is that it's in AC. This weather is the pits!!!
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