Count Down to Arnold

So this is the week it all starts happening. I am a proactive type of person so I am glad to be moving towards starting this whole process and move out of tests and diagnosis time (who am I fooling, the tests never stop!). I go in tomorrow to have my portocath aka Arnold the Terminator "installed". This port will allow them to access me for blood tests, injections, and infusions without disturbing my veins. It will be with me until I have completed all treatments including chemo, surgery and radiation. I am not going to lie, as happy as I am to get this ball rolling I am a little scared. Stepping into the unknown is always a test for us needless to say. My body is about to get invaded and go into warfare on this cancer...let's get this done! Wow, that felt pretty empowering when I wrote that. Yup, I like how that feels. This is warfare on my cancer and Arnold is going to terminate it all from my body! I will use that as a focus to picture the cancer being destroyed for sure!

I will try and post tomorrow night when I get home from the procedure but I am putting my disclaimer on this right now that I may be a little loopy still. So in other words my post could be a lot of fun! ;o)

Blessings

Where do I begin after such a great weekend? First Disneyland for 2 days with Joe...we ran away from it all since it was my last weekend before having this all get rolling and I wanted to make the most of it. Then yesterday I got another treat. Lucia and I went and got some fresh air with a hike at Torrey Pines followed by a yummy breakfast at Naked Cafe. It sure was great to catch up on life and just be with her. For those of you who don't know Lucia, I have known her since elementary school (girl scouts and all) and she also happens to be Cameron's Godmother. 

Speaking of Cameron, can I just say how proud I am of him!?!?! He made up his mind to go to New York when his tour of Beauty and the Beast ended (he was Gaston). He said he didn't want his business resume to go cold while he is pursuing acting and was going to try to work in the advertising field while he is there (verses wait tables like almost every other actor). WHY would I even doubt that goal? He is the true example of setting your mind to do something and making it happen for himself! He is working at The Mill in New York City and really enjoying it. He said he is learning so much and is excited to be with such a great advertising firm. SO nice to not have to worry about him, when I think of him I get a big smile on my face and feel so happy!

Okay, I have more blessings to share but I am going to save them to spread them out. One cool little sign that I got today though was during this silly game I play on my phone. It is called Trivia Crack and I have a few friends that I play against (don't make fun, it keeps my mind working and I learn a lot of useless facts from it!). Well today it asked me, "What was the famous 1980s movie starring Arnold Schwarzenegger called?" I just love the little signs and gifts I get each and every day. I feel like it was God giving me the thumbs up that He has it all handled for tomorrow and things are moving in the right direction. Terminator...be ready to be united in battle with Beth! Warfare time!